In which I attempt to explain the ideas and thoughts behind who I am; the words I speak, and the actions I do.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
And A Happy New Year.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
It's Been Decided.
I’ve decided what I want to do after college. You see, for a while now I’ve been struggling with what exactly I’ll do when I run out of places to go to school. School is what I do best, as far as I’ve seen, and so the thought that someday I will have all my schooling behind me kinda freaks me out.
Seriously, what will I do without the constant challenge of staying awake during a midmorning class? And how will I fare when money is more available? Will I have to forgo yoinking a few handfuls of ketchup and salt from fast food restaurants to avoid having to purchase my own? What if I have to give up sneaking empty water bottles into the cafeteria to obtain free milk? I tell ya, I used to just sit around sometimes for hours dreading the time when tuition payments are a thing of the past.
But I digress. Onto the point of this blog.
I’ve decided what I want to do after college. *Ahem* “Private I.” Oh yeah. I’m going to be a private investigator. Think about it. It’s perfect for me! Being a Private I will allow me to utilize all of my unique skills. I’ll give you the low-down and lets see if you disagree with me.
First, I get to pretty much act as weird and off-the-wall as I want, because that’s what people expect when contracting a Private I... a dysfunctional yet thorough investigator. I mean, I’d have to act strange or else people would start asking hard questions - why are you a Private I, and not part of a bigwig corporation? What do you do with your spare time, anyway? Why do all your business cards have googly eyes hot glued to them? A hilariously offbeat quirk like having to lock and then unlock all the doors I pass through or the tendency to end all my sentences with “snarf” would make sure those questions go unasked.
Second, I get to spend a lot of my time creeping around. And I’m a guy who loves a good creep, you know what I mean? Nothing welcomes in the New Year like lurking within a Christmas tree in the park with an iPod and a pair of binoculars. Oh, and what better way to spend a Friday night than in a ventilation shaft with night vision goggles? Point and case.
Third, I would get to say the most awesome one-liners, like “bingo, Domingo,” when my comical sidekick figures out an obvious truth, or “checkmate” when I finally gather enough incriminating evidence to book the bad guy. That’s not even taking into account all the witty remarks I get to utter to annoying clients and/or inquisitive bystanders.
Fourth, I would get to pack heat. And I mean whatever kind of heat I want... With a little bit of certification, I could choose between a Derringer in the sock and a fully automatic rifle underneath a trench coat. I could even adopt a certain favorite weapon. Taking into account reason number one, it would have to be something quirky yet effective... A Civil War era cavalry revolver, perhaps? Or a Glock with a lucky rabbit’s foot attached to it. Ooh! There’s always the infamous sawed-off shotgun with a comical nickname - “The Mare’s Leg,” perhaps? Or “Stumpy?”
And fifth, I could choose to work anywhere I want. Perhaps I could investigate some perplexing cases in Portland, Oregon? That would be excellent - stalking the cold, puddle-laden streets late at night, chasing some obscure lead. Breath seeping out from between my gritted teeth rhythmically, steadily, eyes sweeping the deserted shop fronts. No, no, no. Phoenix, Arizona. It doesn’t get cold there, so late night stakeouts would be much more pleasant. Plus, I could act more like a cowboy in Phoenix, which is always fun to do. I could chew on buckwheat and wear a sweet hat if I set up shop in Phoenix.
So basically, it’s the ideal career choice for me. I can be mysterious, dangerous, daring, and free all at the same time. I guess all that remains would be to change my name to something more adventurous...
Thanks for reading,
-Jack Spicer, Private I
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Revolutionary.
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Shift gears: Before I left for Thanksgiving, I was watching a show on the History Channel called "The Real Pirates of the Caribbean." It was a historical look at what life looked like for pirates in the Caribbean Sea when major sea profiteering first began. One of the first buccaneers they focused on was Henry Morgan. Morgan was of British descent, and joined the army of General Venables to take over the Spanish city of Santo Domingo in 1655. Venables' British army got their butts kicked by the Spanish, leaving the crippled and disheartened fleet without a contingency plan. Weeks away from any advice on what to do next, the army did something that I think is amazing - they attacked the island of Jamaica and conquered it for the British Crown. Although the commanders of the fleet were later thrown in the Tower of London for taking over such a "useless" island, I think their decision was an incredible one.
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Shift gears again to me: Through elementary, middle, and high school, I had been conditioned to think in a certain way; I would be given directions, and I would follow them. That's it. I'm amazed at how many students in high school flunk courses when all they have to do is simply follow directions. I mean heck, half the time your answers don't even have to be right... you just have to follow the directions! Anyway, with few notable exceptions, that was how I was taught to think.
Now I find myself in college - "the place of ideas," as I've heard it called often. Upon beginning my education here, I started noticing a change in philosophy. At first, I thought it was on the professors' behalf. Now, however, I see that it has taken place with me. The difference is this: I am no longer learning things for grades. In high school, I honestly couldn't care less about a lot of the subjects I was in. There was the classic, "when are we ever gunna use this?" In math classes, and the grumbling that accompanied Shakespeare and Emily Dickinson in English. As I sit through my classes now, taking notes and completing homework assignments, I am looking at this knowledge with one major question: how can I use this?
How can I use what I'm learning about ancient Rome? How can I use an understanding of supply and demand? How can I use an in-depth look at the New Testament?
The possibilities this method of thought brings up are endless. No longer am I doing schoolwork because I have to get an A to keep up with Jen and Hans. Now, I'm doing it because I know that there's got to be some way - even the most insignificant of details - that can help me out.
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Going back to what I said about Friedman and Morgan. Using this way of thinking, I've been taking a long hard look at a phrase that has been repeated to every child in America probably around 67 times a year. "You can do anything you want, as long as you set your mind to it!"
No way, right? We all know that's a load of waffle that we adult-folk tell the little chili-pies to inspire them, right? Look at Friedman - there was no manual concerning "101 Ways to Restart a Country's Economy." Look at Morgan and the army he served in - there was no "Plan B" given a humiliating defeat to the French. Yet Friedman did it, and so did the British army. Without anyone telling them how or where or when. They weren't following directions, they were making up their own as they went along.
People who changed the world in major ways did not know what they were doing, they only knew what they could do.
I don't know what I'm doing. Any one of you reading this could tell that of me. But I know what I can do.
-Daniel
P.S. I'm getting my phone today (I lost it over Thanksgiving break,) so if anyone who's reading this would like me to have their number, text me anytime after 5pm with your name. Or just call sometime and say hello.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
It Gets Cold In Nevada.
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So sitting here trying to kill time pretty much sucks, because I should be sleeping right now. I know this sounds (what's the word you kids are using these days? Oh, yeah) it sounds "lame" of me to be in college and want to be in bed at 11pm. Apparently I'm a pretty "lame" person, then, because I try to at least be in bed by 10pm (prefferably asleep, but sometimes 'in bed' is the best I can do.) You see, I came to the conclusion about a week and a half into college life that staying up until ridiculous hours of the morning is only slightly more cool than it was back in high school, except more annoying the next day because you have to pay for the classes you're sleeping through. I also come to the realization that mornings on a college campus are the most interesting times to be awake, since NO ONE else is. Seriously. People look at me like I just shot the Pope when I mention that I wake up at (gasp) 6:30am.
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So apparently there is a widely held misconception among the peoples of the United States regarding the Great State of Nevada. No, I don't mean the correct way to pronounce "Nev-at-uh," but rather the fact that Nevada is Las Vegas. Let me try and explain this; Las Vegas is Nevada, but Nevada is not Vegas. To illustrate, here is a common conversation I find myself having:
Person: "It's getting colder everyday."
Me: "Yeah, bummer... I hate being cold."
Person: "Really? Where are you from?"
Me: "Nevada."
Person: "Oh, that makes sense. It doesn't ever drop below, like, 65 there, does it? I mean, here we get snow in the winter!"
Me: "Actually, every winter I go up an hour from my house and ski in anywhere from 4-15 feet of snow. And sometimes I'll walk outside in January at 12pm only to realize that the temperature just barely made it into the double digits."
I didn't realize I had that much state pride until I came here. I find myself making up stories regarding Nevada's heritage so as to compete with Mr. Florida or Ms. Delaware. (It helps that no one whatsoever knows anything about Nevada.)
Me: "Yeah, well Nevada was actually first declared a 'state' when Space Pirates from somewhere near the surface of the sun buried their gold in the hills of Dayton and Virginia City... which are two of the largest cities in the state, almost as big as Las Vegas."
Person: "Wow, sweet! You should take me to Nev-aw-duh someday!"
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Well, I'm getting tired of tapping at the keyboard for now, so I'll wrap it up tonight with one last thought.
It's strange having a birthday here in Colorado. First off, I don't have the resources (namely money), to have an actual birthday 'party,' so instead I'm just going to go to this really fancy resturant and get a free birthday meal... like a true cheapskate! Also, I didn't even realize my birthday was this close until about seven hours ago, when i checked my mail to find a birthday card from my dad. I guess being so far from my old places and routines caused the date to be pushed to the back of my mind. Hmmmm.
Okay, that's all for now... On to Youtube!
-Daniel k
Monday, October 27, 2008
Living History.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Ghetto Dance Party!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Trashy.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Status Update...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Citizen's Arrest!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
FYI Paper.
Today marks my fourth week since arriving here in Denver with Dad in that huge Budget truck and with a mind full of suppressed worries. I say ‘suppressed’ for lack of a better term, although ‘ignored’ may be equally accurate. Sitting at home before I left was a virtual breeding ground for misgivings and doubts. Would I like my roommates? Would classes be too hard? I won’t have enough money to make it. I don’t even know anyone in Colorado, much less Denver. But the minute Dad and I sped away from Carson City down Highway 50, it was like Sauron’s big flaming eye had finally looked away, causing my fears to subside... to be ignored.
Since that first Thursday here at The Ghetto, I have made friends, been challenged, felt guilt and relief, and learned more about God. I have laughed, I have grimaced, I have shook my head in astonishment. I have felt pain and joy, I have felt lonely and accepted. I have felt God’s presence and I have thought, where is He? In other words, life has continued on in much the same way as it did back home. This has been a strange realization for me, since I somehow expected life to be completely different. I thought I’d be a new person with new thoughts and new abilities. And maybe in small ways I am, but overall I’m still Daniel. I’m still me.
But I am encountering some issues, don’t get me wrong. My life back home was far from smooth sailing, and much the same is my experience here. I don’t like to admit it because I spent so much time back home convincing myself that leaving was going to be so easy, but I do have a fair amount of home sickness. It doesn’t really come from sleeping in a foreign place or seeing different scenery. It really comes from my longing to have relationships equal to what I had back in Nevada. I want to sit down with Aaron at Starbucks and tell him all these crazy experiences I’ve been having. I want to flop down on Hans’ couch and huck a pillow or two at his wall to see if his duplex partner is home. Yet I suppose that’s part of growing, isn’t it? And I’m not going to make those friendships sitting around feeling sick for Reno or Dayton or Tahoe. All I can really do is... trust in God and in others. (Funny how life works out, isn’t it?)